Friday, November 30, 2012

The Tallest Man on Earth

I wear you in the patches of my clothing, you know every thread goes through my heart.

These are lyrics that I've just now found I have been hearing wrong, it's actually-

When you mend the patches in my clothing, you know every thread goes through my heart.

Very different meaning now but....I think I like my version better. Life brings people and takes them away, but you will always be effected by your relationship with them, for good or bad. It's always good to remember and take what you've learned and not forget it. I just wish I could use all my energy and give it to all the people who hurt. I've always wondered if people could (on some level) feel it if you thought positive thoughts toward them. Kind of like praying, but more of a passing of positive energy. They wouldn't know why, but their mood would lift or an opportunity would open itself up to them or if they could just feel that someone was thinking about them and they didn't have to be so alone.

I am so frustrated by the limits of my own body and mind. However, being here has opened me up to so many new things, I don't think I'll ever stop learning or growing and if I do...I'll die.

"oh, I said I could rise from the harness of our goals, here come the tears...but like always, I let them go..."

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

5 Down, 5 To Go

I can't believe I've hit the half way mark. You know how you feel like time stands still, but then all of a sudden it's gone? This realization makes me feel kinda old. But I've still got a lot of life left in me. A lot of time still in India for that matter.

We had school for the first time in a while today. It went really well, I'm finally finding a rhythm for the class. It's still really challenging at times. But I don't go home crying everyday like the first month or so. I'm loving my kids more and more. They are very special and I look forward to getting to spend even more time with them. It's really fun when I meet them outside the classroom and get to talk to them. They are always really happy to see me. Which is nice, at least they don't hate me...I think.
I don't know how effectively I'm teaching them English, but I do what I can and  I think just having someone there to give them time and encouragement is good.

It's finally starting to cool off here. All the Indians are wearing sweaters and hats like it's gonna snow. But it still feels like summer to me lol

My family is coming in less than a month and I cannot wait. Anyway, I really don't know what to write about most of the time. So, if anyone has any questions about anything feel free to ask and I'll answer to the best of my ability.

oh! on my way home from school there was a giant elephant walking down the road. It was all painted with people ridding on top. It was massive, I guess I never really realized how big elephants were until I was literally right next to one. Of course I didn't have my camera, sorry.
okay, that's enough pointless ranting.

hugs and kisses from India,

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

A Little Update, Nothing Special

It's been the week of Diwali here. Apparently this means everyone spends all the money they have on fireworks and sets them off on every street corner. It has literally been sounding like a war zone outside for the past two days. The lights are pretty, but the sound really sets me on edge.

Other than that....I've been sick a lot. But it's getting better, I hope.
I'm working on logging books at the school so we can hopefully end up having a little library for the kids to check out books. I know they would love that.

I think about coming home everyday. But I know that even if I hate every second of it I have to stay till April. If I don't, I'll always regret it. I'm also pretty much halfway done and my family is coming in a month! whoooo! *happy dance* then I only have like 4 months to go and I know they will fly by.

I've learned and discovered so much about myself while being here. I've made great friends who I am able to share this experience with. I'm hopefully helping people too, but really this trip has already been worth it for me.
I am so thankful to all the people who worked so hard to get me here.

I'm finally finding Indian sweets I like, thats a big deal for me lol I'm sure I've changed in ways I don't even realize and wont realize till I get back to the states. Thank you all so much for your support. I'm sorry I've been MIA for so long.

Hugs and Kisses from India!